Random thoughts

Listening to music,
Eating chocolate,
The world doesn't seem quite so bad.
Things might finally be on their way
Up,
And up again,
To the dizzy heights -
Happiness.
Oh yes,
The greatest feeling there is,
But one I hardly remember.
So long since I was last happy
Every day,
Loving all the great things
Life had to offer.
But that's 'had' -
Past tense.
It's all over now,
I've nothing left to live for -
There's not a day goes by
I don't wish I was dead,
Not one.
I'm only glad when I can ignore it.
I do not intend to make a habit -
I can think of better things to do,
Better ways to spend my time,
Better ideas
Than committing suicide,
On a daily basis.
I must hang on for someone -
Friends, family,
Whoever.
Look for the hope I lost -
Find it and regain happiness,
The will to live.