Confusion in faith

Sometimes it gets too much,
I can’t take any more.
There’s no explanation,
No reason for my feelings.

All I can do is pray,
But this is so difficult
When I’ve lost all hope
And all I have left is anger.

God doesn’t need to listen.
I’ve done so much bad,
I don’t deserve his help,
But listen he does.

I don’t know why,
I can’t explain.
“Have faith and don’t give up”
Is what God says to me.

I’ve been left wondering,
Was it God who confused my emotions?
I wish I knew how I felt,
Even if I couldn’t get any worse.

Sometimes I can’t escape,
Days or even weeks of anger
And no end to my confusion.
I just wish it was all…

Over?
Finished?
Done?
Yeah, that’s about right.